*Please excuse the awkward wording–I have a cold and my brain is full of goo and my brain is transposing words left and right.)
First off, hoping you have had a blessed holiday season whether you celebrate or not– we kind of celebrated Hanukkah (we lit a small menorah made of playdough and birthday cake candles and played with the dreidel) and celebrated Christmas on Christmas eve with our extended families Christmas day we had a small immediate family celebration then a short visit with my 82 yr old grandmother) while celebrating a much needed Sabbath. It turned out that we all got sick which made me even more grateful that we did most of the celebrating the day before.
This month has seen much blessing from friends and family who have stepped in to cover our needs in various ways despite the paycheck we expected not showing up (please pray it comes in the next few weeks– things are going to start getting shut off otherwise). From friends who sent us cash (which bought much needed groceries and paid the immediate bills) and gave me small jobs that covered Christmas dinner and a few small gifts to family members who stepped in and paid for gas and our steer (which means that we have plenty of organic, grass-fed beef), to small gifts of much needed items, even Christmas gifts of clothes that are needed and FIT and grocery money (the kids are so excited about the Whole Foods gift card from my WONDERFUL sister-in-law) we have been amazingly blessed. It is not comfortable, especially each day not knowing where, when and how the next need will be met.
I am usually the “God will provide” person– every time we have a need I am the one who trusts and believes and watches for God to step in– and He always does because He is faithful, but I am struggling– every few days I get knocked over with a wave of fear and I am battling it with His help. The thing is, because I am usually the one who just trusts it is affecting the rest of the family having me worried. So I am praying diligently for patience, faith, and the ability to stand strong in faith.
So now I am praying for a miracle, and trusting we will have one soon. He is faithful and He has provided thus far therefore I can trust Him and I am standing on His promises that He will take care of us. That said just an update on other things:
Shamus is writing a brilliant book while working on all his other projects. Brilliant I say. He was working on an epic tale (which was well written, makes a perfect short story, and fizzled out because he didn’t have his arc figured out before he started) but this one is shorter, funnier, and just plain awesome and I can’t wait to share it with others. He is also trying to finish up so loose ends so he can start applying various places who may be interested in his work– but those would all mean moving and him working in an office (which would mean not writing). We are really praying that somehow the Lord would provide so that he can continue to work from home (and actually get paid what is promised to him) and that he would be able to keep writing which is really his passion.
The kids are growing like weeds (Rach is 5′ 5″ and a half! and the other two have rapidly shortening clothes). They are also maturing at an alarming rate. They all set out to buy gifts for everyone in the family with their own money and did a beautiful job. Rachel has been saving up and purchasing her own lunch foods (her own choice–she wants to learn about economy, the cost of food, and learn to do for herself so that when she is old enough to move out she knows how to live economically.) Issac made rice packs as gifts for everyone and Esther not only purchased special gifts for individuals but she stepped in several times to help the family out using her birthday money.
All three kids are keeping very busy with various projects. Rachel had to stop piano lessons until we get paid again but is occasionally babysitting for her teacher in exchange for a lesson and is also doing quite a bit of babysitting otherwise. Esther is not going to be in the next show due to monetary restraints but is happily engaged in other projects (most including books either reading of or writing.) Issac is building and creating and making constantly.
I am sure there is a lot more they are doing but right now my brain is shutting down so I will instead point you to a post that is where my heart is and is better able to express how I am feeling at the moment than I apparently am in my addle brained state: My dear friend Holly shares it here.